I'm back...

Okay so I'm back...I havne't been blogging and so much has been going on but not really the stuff you blog about, you know? But yesterday I was feeling so overwhelmed I really describe how I felt at that moment but I can say that I questioned wether I even wanted to go on... I have so many people that I love and that love me and it is so hard... I want to be in so many places and be there for so many people and I feel like I let them down so much by missing important events and milestones and I hate it I want to be there for all these diffrent people and it's not physically possible. Even as I write this I know it sounds crazy but I can't change how I feel I always feel like I should be doing more and I travel so much already and participate in so much I don't know what the answer is but something told me to start blogging again get it all out and maybe that will help, so we will see I guess...