I can't take anymore...

Even as I typed that I thought I shouldn't because you almost feel like you are tempting God to see if you can, I know he is not a spiteful God and wouldn't put something on me just because I said I can't take anymore and I truely believe he does not give us more than we can handle. Now I am starting to wonder the definition of "handle", handle without losing your mind or having a mental break down or handle as in that was rough but things are getting better...

I lost a dear friend in an automobile accident, my Aunt was diagnosed with Colon cancer, and now my best friend is in the hospital someone I love more than I can explain is sick and they are not here and I feel so helpless...All of this was just in the month of July so is August going to get better? I missed getting to go meet my new beautiful niece because I went to take care of my Aunt in the hospital and that broke my heart but I needed to be there for her. She was so greatful that I was there and I realized how much I missed her. It sounds strange to say but we had a good time, it was like old times laughing and hanging out, I really miss her. So here is where I am at

1. I want to live in Knoxville so my kids can where they have always known
2. I want to live in Las Vegas because I love it and it is close to family but not too close
3. I want to live in Atlanta so my son can be near his dad and I can be near my Aunt
4. I want to live in Cincinatti so I can be near 2 of my best friends my brother and the best s-i-l ever and my beautiful nieces and nephews...

I feel like I spend my whole life wishing I was some where else, taking care of someone that I love, missing people, I miss so many people and want to be with them...

So what do you do? I can't just decide to be happy I don't have the people I love with me how can I be happy, I don't think I can get them all to move to the same place but Vegas is really awesome they might :) If I move to one place I disapoint others if I stay here I am still disapointed...I don't know the answer and I don't want to continue on like this...